At the end of the day, I'm feeling exhausted, both physically and mentally.
It does not necessarily mean it has been a bad day though. I spent very meaningful times with firstly, kids from MINDS (Movement of the Intellectually Disabled of Singapore), then with my parents and brother. I got to drive around too, but only a bit too excessively coz I had to travel all the way to NTU and back under the stuffy hot weather. (Doesn't matter that I was in the car with full air-con; the sunlight and weather affected me still.)
Was at Road Safety Park @ ECP with some of my colleagues, helping out kids from MINDS in knowing the rules of the road. However, as most of the kids have lower levels of awareness and understanding, we bent the rules to mingle with them and let them have fun on their go-karts and on legs instead. I was with this sweet little girl, Andrea, walking around the Road Safety Park. She was largely oblivious to the happenings around her and most of the time was walking around on her own, venturing onto the grass and heading towards the fences to be nearer to the sea. It took a while to know her style, like how she preferred you slinging an arm over her shoulder to grabbing her hand, and to know what she wanted. Often, she was so happy that she would start grinning and shaking her head and even hugged me once. A pity she could not think beyond her current level. Hope she grows up to be stronger and better.
Afternoon I drove my Papa Mama to NTU, first to have lunch with Shou Bi (dear Bro) and taking the chance to tour NTU, then to Nanyang Business School for an interview for MFE course. Ended up I was upset and worried about my future once again. My mathematics background was deemed not strong enough (compared to those 1st-class honours engineering students?) and the professors thought I might have to struggle in the course which is full of complex mathematics. Such a headache. Although I wanted the course quite badly, I wouldn't want to have perpetual headaches and stress on catching up on my maths with the other course mates too. Damn. Everything is so competitive. That's the result of 300+ people fighting hard for 40 available seats. And I thought my maths was solid. :(
The interview filled me with gloom for the rest of the day. After it, I didn't want to talk much. But still, we treasured the precious times together - Papa, Mama, me - with tea time at Serangoon Gardens food centre and more 兜风 along KJE and PIE. Driving can be quite tiring! By 5 pm I was half-dead physically and was dragging my feet.
So for now, I'll just keep my fingers crossed. There has been much uncertainties since the start of this year. I hope things turn out fine in the end.
And WW agrees we should start dinner-location-sourcing this weekend! Yippie! Again, keeping my fingers crossed on another uncertainty.
Monday, March 31, 2008
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Daydreaming in the night
I spent the last two hours doing online research and selected my top 3 venues for each of our wedding events - solemnisation, wedding dinner and wedding outdoor lunch. I'm not revealing the list yet; WW has to agree to them first. :) Glad he left most of the wedding decisions to me. Now I get to choose the few choices I like then let him narrow down. Didn't know it could be so fun working towards a dream.
Earlier this evening Tian accompanied me to the Starry Starry Wedding event at Fort Canning, The Legends. They showcased their outdoor wedding setup as well as the bridal dresses, Tianpo jewellery and wedding photography. Tian and I liked the outdoor setting for its offer of scenery, but I thought it was not special enough and might not be too comfortable for a lunch reception. So I would say then The Legends is not in my list of Tops.
No worries, this is not going to turn out to be the wedding blog! Coz I'll have more updates on other areas of my life soon. :)
Earlier this evening Tian accompanied me to the Starry Starry Wedding event at Fort Canning, The Legends. They showcased their outdoor wedding setup as well as the bridal dresses, Tianpo jewellery and wedding photography. Tian and I liked the outdoor setting for its offer of scenery, but I thought it was not special enough and might not be too comfortable for a lunch reception. So I would say then The Legends is not in my list of Tops.
No worries, this is not going to turn out to be the wedding blog! Coz I'll have more updates on other areas of my life soon. :)
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
烈日当空
Being an white-collared executive for 3.5 years, I've gotten used to the air-conditioning at the workplace, at least 8 hours a day for all the work days. I used to miss the days when I got to soak in the sun, anytime of the day as I wished. But now I'm resigned to fate. Rather than lamenting on being couped up in an artificial environment, I make use of the weekends to do some outdoor activities.
Yesterday during lunch it was super hot and sunny with the sun rays beating down hard on you. I was running around a few places and took a long walk to Circular Road (from Shenton Way) for lunch. At the end of lunch break I was back in office with a bad headache. :( What harm has the sedentary office lifestyle done to our bodies?
Yesterday during lunch it was super hot and sunny with the sun rays beating down hard on you. I was running around a few places and took a long walk to Circular Road (from Shenton Way) for lunch. At the end of lunch break I was back in office with a bad headache. :( What harm has the sedentary office lifestyle done to our bodies?
Monday, March 24, 2008
Count to 10 before you lash out in anger
Very often, it is not what you say that will make your partner angry - it is how you say it. Whenever you feel challenged in a situation, step back and count to 10 before continuing the argument. This gives you time to compose yourself and think things through.
I regretted saying the mean things in a fit of anger and in self-deluded vengeance before completely understanding the situation. I blamed the man for not giving clear directions and leaving me in a state of uncertainty - was it for real and are we moving forward? Aren't we supposed to? All evil thoughts snowballed into a mass; it hit the victim quite badly.
We spent more time sorting out the mess of thoughts and feelings. It turned out there were other priorities in his mind that have to be cleared for the big event. (Spell: finances.) The biggest worry and headache for to-be-wed couples and subsequently, for married couples and families. To me finances ain't too much of a worry as I have some savings and expect nothing more than a simple wedding. To the man, expectations on himself are higher, both self-imposed and family-induced. I suppose a man's responsibilities are still greater than those of a woman's, though I do not believe it has to be so.
The outburst served as an apt reminder, at a most appropriate time where things could go either way. Frustrations could potentially build up or, as long as things have been discussed through and agreed upon, mutual understanding could be reached. Now I know better than to allow my negatives thoughts feast on themselves and grow. I re-learn the importance of standing in the other's shoes, seeing in all perspectives. Thoroughly exercising the big word "Understanding". To approach things in a non-confrontational way and in a manner that allows conducive discussions.
There is much to learn. Thank you Nan Ren for giving me the time, the chance and the love to learn.
I regretted saying the mean things in a fit of anger and in self-deluded vengeance before completely understanding the situation. I blamed the man for not giving clear directions and leaving me in a state of uncertainty - was it for real and are we moving forward? Aren't we supposed to? All evil thoughts snowballed into a mass; it hit the victim quite badly.
We spent more time sorting out the mess of thoughts and feelings. It turned out there were other priorities in his mind that have to be cleared for the big event. (Spell: finances.) The biggest worry and headache for to-be-wed couples and subsequently, for married couples and families. To me finances ain't too much of a worry as I have some savings and expect nothing more than a simple wedding. To the man, expectations on himself are higher, both self-imposed and family-induced. I suppose a man's responsibilities are still greater than those of a woman's, though I do not believe it has to be so.
The outburst served as an apt reminder, at a most appropriate time where things could go either way. Frustrations could potentially build up or, as long as things have been discussed through and agreed upon, mutual understanding could be reached. Now I know better than to allow my negatives thoughts feast on themselves and grow. I re-learn the importance of standing in the other's shoes, seeing in all perspectives. Thoroughly exercising the big word "Understanding". To approach things in a non-confrontational way and in a manner that allows conducive discussions.
There is much to learn. Thank you Nan Ren for giving me the time, the chance and the love to learn.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Good news!
Happy to hear that another of my friend cum classmate from JC class is expecting! Congrats ger. :)
If I could arrange, I would want to have a BB now too so that it would be an easier delivery and my little one could grow up to be a big boy / girl earlier. Then perhaps by age 35 I can take life easier. But such things can’t be rushed and planned as wished, so I’m enjoying my own life now and will concentrate on building a strong marriage first. Besides, having a baby would consume too much of my personal time. I’m still too selfish to share my personal time at this point in time. Just hope my body can 真气到三十出。
Wanna thank my friends for sharing my happiness. I may not be as ready as should be, but I guess it takes time to accept that such a big change is going to happen in your life.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Our special milestone
A surprise awaited me on Friday evening; I was slowly laid into the Grand Plan without the least bit of suspicion! WW is real good :)
Although we have been talking about it for a bit since late last year, the reality has not quite set in yet. But now that the ring is sitting comfortably on my finger, we have got to remind ourselves that yes, we're walking into another phase of our lives together from this moment on.
The special moment was painstakingly created by WW, first with the order of the sparkling bling from US and the stressful tracking of the shipping status, then the incarnation of the grand idea for a surprise to throw me. There was also the rushing to get all the other stuff ready for the occasion and the bouquet of roses. I was very pleasantly surprised with all the efforts and planning done as he has been very busy with work recently too. Admired most of his courage to pop the question as it meant a major commitment in his life. Even as a lady (albeit a freedom-loving one), I am slightly intimidated with having to engage lifelong commitment to my partner. To a guy, this act would have been a significant one.
To WW: Thank you for being my man. Even though I may still feel like a stranger in this new stage of our lives together, I am ready to put in whatever it takes to make it a strong, lasting and engaging marriage. I understand that at some point, going into a marriage must have scared you too. Don't worry coz we're walking down this path together and have each other's support. I may not have expressed all that I feel at that special moment, but we both know some things need not be spoken.
Thinking back, I would very much like to have a surprise planned for WW then too. But I was expecting it to be a few weeks later in April. WW has gotten that laid out well too coz then the surprise would be even greater had I not expected it!
Although we have been talking about it for a bit since late last year, the reality has not quite set in yet. But now that the ring is sitting comfortably on my finger, we have got to remind ourselves that yes, we're walking into another phase of our lives together from this moment on.
The special moment was painstakingly created by WW, first with the order of the sparkling bling from US and the stressful tracking of the shipping status, then the incarnation of the grand idea for a surprise to throw me. There was also the rushing to get all the other stuff ready for the occasion and the bouquet of roses. I was very pleasantly surprised with all the efforts and planning done as he has been very busy with work recently too. Admired most of his courage to pop the question as it meant a major commitment in his life. Even as a lady (albeit a freedom-loving one), I am slightly intimidated with having to engage lifelong commitment to my partner. To a guy, this act would have been a significant one.
To WW: Thank you for being my man. Even though I may still feel like a stranger in this new stage of our lives together, I am ready to put in whatever it takes to make it a strong, lasting and engaging marriage. I understand that at some point, going into a marriage must have scared you too. Don't worry coz we're walking down this path together and have each other's support. I may not have expressed all that I feel at that special moment, but we both know some things need not be spoken.
Thinking back, I would very much like to have a surprise planned for WW then too. But I was expecting it to be a few weeks later in April. WW has gotten that laid out well too coz then the surprise would be even greater had I not expected it!
Monday, March 03, 2008
忙忙碌碌
Somehow I can’t get to start my work engine this morning. Just three weeks ago I was unduly worried about my existence in the company, fearing I might have become irrelevant – not enough work cut out for me? But today I feel the pressure of mounting workload, again. Perhaps our unit gets a kick out of drowning staff.
Nevertheless, I’m not letting work affect my mood. This is going to be a busy week. Mon – gym; Tue – dinner with classmates from Deustche klass; Wed – drinking with colleagues; Thu – Wellness Village; Fri – dating day. I may have to skip yoga this week. From next week onwards, if we go according to plan, I’ll start on my golf lessons which consume Mon and Thu for the next five weeks.
充实人生，忙碌也快乐！
Nevertheless, I’m not letting work affect my mood. This is going to be a busy week. Mon – gym; Tue – dinner with classmates from Deustche klass; Wed – drinking with colleagues; Thu – Wellness Village; Fri – dating day. I may have to skip yoga this week. From next week onwards, if we go according to plan, I’ll start on my golf lessons which consume Mon and Thu for the next five weeks.
充实人生，忙碌也快乐！
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Change in weather
The change from sunny to rainy has made some activities during the day undo-able. Wanted to bring Summer out for a walk at Bishan Park but the rain has spoilt our plans. However, we took the chance to catch forty winks. Now I'm going to do some online shopping - VS!
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