Can't help feel disappointed by his loftiness and self-absorption. It doesn't hurt to show a little concern. You have to know the priorities in life; some things done at the right time proves so much more.
It doesn't help even if you drop by but your heart and mind are elsewhere. If you prefer to relieve your mind-bogs by flipping the magazine, do that at home. You always keep your thoughts to yourself, staying silent while choosing to believe I prefer silence too.
Somehow I can't imagine how living, during the workdays, with you will be like.
Sigh.
心里的痛,从哪儿掏?
Monday, February 25, 2008
There's this bug in the office!
It’s uncomfortably cold in the office since this morning. Maybe it is the clouds and haze blocking out the sunshine that keeps us warm. My fingers are frosty and a sense of unwell is creeping in. Have popped in a vitamin C pill to build up my immunity and a panadol to keep my growing headache at bay. I’m keeping my fingers crossed.
I have this strong urge again to move on to new fields. :p
I have this strong urge again to move on to new fields. :p
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Dad's love
Seems like this is a good lunar year ahead. I'm feeling happier and more positive as the days go by. :)
Last night I was rubbing the big blue-black on my ankle and recalled those days in PGP when my ex of two weeks helped me rubbed those taekwondo-induced blue-blacks. wahaha. But of coz I was quick to redeem myself with recounts of the finger and back massages my dear NR gives me.
This morning dad woke up early to make breakfast for sis and me. He had the teh and half-boiled eggs all ready for us. Recalled those primary and secondary school days when Apa used to make breakfast for us too before sending us to school. It has been a long long while since we get to enjoy Dad's breakfast love, especially after we went to University and led lives of our own in hostels. Apa has started on his breakfast "endeavour" after seeing me complain about not having teabags at home during those few days I was on MC in the past weeks.
Apa cares a lot for us. When we were young, he tended to our fevers by waking up at intervals in the night and early morning to replace the warm towels on our foreheads and to pop us with panadols. He also fetched us to school every morning; that time while we were in Maha Bodhi it was all the way from Bedok to Old Airport Road area. He's the kind of strong and silent dad. And it's sweet how he played with my hair, albeit a little subconsciously, at my aunt's place during CNY. Hee.
Last night I was rubbing the big blue-black on my ankle and recalled those days in PGP when my ex of two weeks helped me rubbed those taekwondo-induced blue-blacks. wahaha. But of coz I was quick to redeem myself with recounts of the finger and back massages my dear NR gives me.
This morning dad woke up early to make breakfast for sis and me. He had the teh and half-boiled eggs all ready for us. Recalled those primary and secondary school days when Apa used to make breakfast for us too before sending us to school. It has been a long long while since we get to enjoy Dad's breakfast love, especially after we went to University and led lives of our own in hostels. Apa has started on his breakfast "endeavour" after seeing me complain about not having teabags at home during those few days I was on MC in the past weeks.
Apa cares a lot for us. When we were young, he tended to our fevers by waking up at intervals in the night and early morning to replace the warm towels on our foreheads and to pop us with panadols. He also fetched us to school every morning; that time while we were in Maha Bodhi it was all the way from Bedok to Old Airport Road area. He's the kind of strong and silent dad. And it's sweet how he played with my hair, albeit a little subconsciously, at my aunt's place during CNY. Hee.
I must be crazy!
Craving for a Coach wallet, despite getting a new wallet from a dear friend for birthday. Crazy me!
This has all the necessary compartments I need - 10 credit card slots, an ID window, 2 bill slots and an external coin pocket which I can choose not to use. Only thing is it is in white which I may not be able to maintain very clean for long.
This is close to perfect! Only if it's not a black-skinned interior. It has the same number of pockets and slots as the first.
Pockets seems insufficient. But the whiteness is nice too.
This has all the necessary compartments I need - 10 credit card slots, an ID window, 2 bill slots and an external coin pocket which I can choose not to use. Only thing is it is in white which I may not be able to maintain very clean for long.
This is close to perfect! Only if it's not a black-skinned interior. It has the same number of pockets and slots as the first.
Pockets seems insufficient. But the whiteness is nice too.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Fougasse
During my spare time today, I tried a simple bread recipe using baker cum author Richard Bertinet's kneading technique. This fougasse, made with white dough and very simply nothing else, tasted like the crusty tip of a French loaf. Hard crispy crust, I like. But it may be a little too hard for the less solid teethed. =P
How to make the best out of a precious day?
Today's what I deem a superb-weather day - the sun is bright and sunny, winds gusty yet there are with some light clouds. The perfect weather to do outdoor activities or just lie on the grass fields looking at the sky.
Furthermore, it's a Sunday. Just the right day to do some lazing, soul-searching and resting.
I often wonder if what I'm doing at the moment most fulfills my soul's desire. I wonder if there is something that makes my heart leap and makes me feel like I'm living both in the moment and in eternity. Imagine dancing around in vast green patches, speeding down a highway in the convertible with the sun overhead, standing at a cliff's edge looking down at the communities below you, flying like a bird in the air. Some part of me is secretly yearning to live those unforgettable moments.
But thinking back, I miss the winds blowing into my living room and the evening sun shining into my room, whenever I'm away from home for long. The place I often want to go back to is my home (and these days, 30 BD too) despite having lived here for 20 years.
To not waste a precious day is to live the current moment, appreciate the beauty of nature and things around you and not to worry about missing out on anything at all. Because the good things will remain or return.
(P.S. I'm still having a blocked nose and stuffed ears, a result of the flu since last Sunday. And I'm missing WW who has to work over this weekend and thus couldn't meet for these few days. Good thing we met on Valentine's. :))
Furthermore, it's a Sunday. Just the right day to do some lazing, soul-searching and resting.
I often wonder if what I'm doing at the moment most fulfills my soul's desire. I wonder if there is something that makes my heart leap and makes me feel like I'm living both in the moment and in eternity. Imagine dancing around in vast green patches, speeding down a highway in the convertible with the sun overhead, standing at a cliff's edge looking down at the communities below you, flying like a bird in the air. Some part of me is secretly yearning to live those unforgettable moments.
But thinking back, I miss the winds blowing into my living room and the evening sun shining into my room, whenever I'm away from home for long. The place I often want to go back to is my home (and these days, 30 BD too) despite having lived here for 20 years.
To not waste a precious day is to live the current moment, appreciate the beauty of nature and things around you and not to worry about missing out on anything at all. Because the good things will remain or return.
(P.S. I'm still having a blocked nose and stuffed ears, a result of the flu since last Sunday. And I'm missing WW who has to work over this weekend and thus couldn't meet for these few days. Good thing we met on Valentine's. :))
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Sick nottoz
My body is getting weaker, it seems. Just two weeks ago I was down with stomach flu and now I'm bugged with a serious common flu. The doctor gave me two days' MC to rest at home and with pills to cure my runny nose, cough and dissolve my phlegm. I'm not able to attribute this to work, coz workload has reduced since start of the year. Could it then be a result of more worries of the uncertainties ahead? Or am I the workaholic who breaks down when deprived of the challenges and stress at work?
Nevertheless, I'm happy to have enjoyed the CNY festivities. We did not do a lot of house-visiting, but instead spent quality time with family and loved ones. On the first lunar day, WW came over and drove me to Changi Airport T3 to celebrate my birthday with the slices of Patissier cakes we bought the day before. On the second day, I went over to his house to bai nian and caught 长江七号 with him, his sister, cousins and uncle. (And I cried a little during the show when 周星驰"died"; can you imagine I'm so prone to tears now?) On Sat we went to 观音庙 then back home for a round of mahjong with WW, Tian and Mr. RK. On Sun WW accompanied me to Parkway Parade where I got two bread-making books. Then we went to East Coast Park for kite-flying. It's a simple yet happy date. :)
Nevertheless, I'm happy to have enjoyed the CNY festivities. We did not do a lot of house-visiting, but instead spent quality time with family and loved ones. On the first lunar day, WW came over and drove me to Changi Airport T3 to celebrate my birthday with the slices of Patissier cakes we bought the day before. On the second day, I went over to his house to bai nian and caught 长江七号 with him, his sister, cousins and uncle. (And I cried a little during the show when 周星驰"died"; can you imagine I'm so prone to tears now?) On Sat we went to 观音庙 then back home for a round of mahjong with WW, Tian and Mr. RK. On Sun WW accompanied me to Parkway Parade where I got two bread-making books. Then we went to East Coast Park for kite-flying. It's a simple yet happy date. :)
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Summer exclusive
Today was a half-day. I met WW for lunch at Amoy food centre before heading to his house, where we took a rest before visiting the two doggies - Ally & Shasha - which were quarantined. The doggies were back from NYC last Tue.
Played with the little mixed-character Summer (Highland Terrier aka Westie) and took some photos of her. She appears to be very guai sometimes but naughty like a puppy when she knows you well enough.
Played with the little mixed-character Summer (Highland Terrier aka Westie) and took some photos of her. She appears to be very guai sometimes but naughty like a puppy when she knows you well enough.
Summer tilting her head when I made funny high-pitched noises. So cute :)
Monday, February 04, 2008
Jayce & Jason's wedding
We had a fun time sabo-ing the brothers on Feng's wedding day! The best part was the big big heart filled with $$$ notes. Woohoo!
Wishing Feng & Jason 甜甜蜜蜜到永远!
A high Tian taking photos of us while I was driving along SLE. We were on the way from the bride (Feng)'s house to the groom (Jason)'s house.
Lucky Ivan to sit between Jun & XHIn the lift of Jason's house. Our faces a little sweaty from the morning's games. You can imagine how the brothers have sweat outside the house.
Jun, Tian, XH, meThe sisters (with Ivan) and the wedding couple
Happily taking photos of ourselves while waiting for Feng to change into her teadress
Me and IvanSisters with the couple. Feng in her very pretty and special tea dress.Back to Feng's house. The couple with Feng's big big family!
Feng's nuclear family. And shy doggie.
The Brothers. Quite sporting - lucky for usSisters Brothers combinedThe dinner @ Furama Riverfront Hotel. Sisters manning the reception desk.Annie (Ivan's ger) with Jun, XH and me
My dear Nan Ren :)Dear Huang Tian sisIvan and Annie
Feng in her wedding gown. Jason blocked by the tall wedding cake
In their evening gowns
Wishing Feng & Jason 甜甜蜜蜜到永远!
A high Tian taking photos of us while I was driving along SLE. We were on the way from the bride (Feng)'s house to the groom (Jason)'s house.
Lucky Ivan to sit between Jun & XHIn the lift of Jason's house. Our faces a little sweaty from the morning's games. You can imagine how the brothers have sweat outside the house.
Jun, Tian, XH, meThe sisters (with Ivan) and the wedding couple
Happily taking photos of ourselves while waiting for Feng to change into her teadress
Me and IvanSisters with the couple. Feng in her very pretty and special tea dress.Back to Feng's house. The couple with Feng's big big family!
Feng's nuclear family. And shy doggie.
The Brothers. Quite sporting - lucky for usSisters Brothers combinedThe dinner @ Furama Riverfront Hotel. Sisters manning the reception desk.Annie (Ivan's ger) with Jun, XH and me
My dear Nan Ren :)Dear Huang Tian sisIvan and Annie
Feng in her wedding gown. Jason blocked by the tall wedding cake
In their evening gowns
Friday, February 01, 2008
I miss WW
This is one of the first few photos we've taken and I like the way it was taken. 我们迈进第五年!It's so cold tonight, I just want a 抱抱 from the 男人.
Be happy my dear ger! :)
Tks for the advice :)
Soon there'll be an answer.
Today marks the start of the second month of 2008. I'm pretty numb to these things, after a while. The turn of a new year didn't make a mark on me; CNY will just come and pass. I used to look forward to these times of the year, but this year every event seems the same.
I am down with stomach flu and am nursing my sickness at home. Although the discomfort in my tummy is not acute, it can be rather irritating as it affects my overall energy levels. And it brings along fever and a headache. Now I can understand the discomfort WW has to bear when faced with a bloated stomach. But I would still be willing to take over his share of the discomfort, as long as he feels good and is healthy.
Tomorrow is Feng's customary wedding day. We seven sisters (except for Xuan who is in Aussie and can't come back this time round) will be helping out from the early morning. Time for us to exercise our creativities and exhibit the mean side of us. We are going to sabo the brothers! Wahaha. I remember vividly that three years back I used to do the same for Stephie, then two years back for Sophia, helping out as a sister on their wedding days. These events now bring tears in me (and my eyes) although I thought I used to be a strong, no-tears lady. I'm getting emotionally vulnerable to these meaningful events in life coz in this cold realistic world, it always warms my heart to see such strong emotions and faith hold true.
To dear Feng, wedding is a beautiful thing. Although it may come with hassles and troubles, it is worthwhile as both joys and frustrations come as one like the black and one seeds in a chess game. Let go of your expectations and take whatever comes up with an open mind and heart. Just go with the flow! Meanwhile, you have us behind you for support!
Soon there'll be an answer.
Today marks the start of the second month of 2008. I'm pretty numb to these things, after a while. The turn of a new year didn't make a mark on me; CNY will just come and pass. I used to look forward to these times of the year, but this year every event seems the same.
I am down with stomach flu and am nursing my sickness at home. Although the discomfort in my tummy is not acute, it can be rather irritating as it affects my overall energy levels. And it brings along fever and a headache. Now I can understand the discomfort WW has to bear when faced with a bloated stomach. But I would still be willing to take over his share of the discomfort, as long as he feels good and is healthy.
Tomorrow is Feng's customary wedding day. We seven sisters (except for Xuan who is in Aussie and can't come back this time round) will be helping out from the early morning. Time for us to exercise our creativities and exhibit the mean side of us. We are going to sabo the brothers! Wahaha. I remember vividly that three years back I used to do the same for Stephie, then two years back for Sophia, helping out as a sister on their wedding days. These events now bring tears in me (and my eyes) although I thought I used to be a strong, no-tears lady. I'm getting emotionally vulnerable to these meaningful events in life coz in this cold realistic world, it always warms my heart to see such strong emotions and faith hold true.
To dear Feng, wedding is a beautiful thing. Although it may come with hassles and troubles, it is worthwhile as both joys and frustrations come as one like the black and one seeds in a chess game. Let go of your expectations and take whatever comes up with an open mind and heart. Just go with the flow! Meanwhile, you have us behind you for support!
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